Ladies and gentlemen, the time has come. In a little over a week I, Katherine Elizabeth Huskey will be a college graduate.
Hold your applause.
It's been a tough journey. I feel like I've been going to school forever (5 years). I couldn't be happier about finishing my degree. I'm in the top 10% of my class, a member of Phi Kappa Phi Honor Society, and I'm graduating with both departmental and latin honors.
Still, I'm afraid. More specifically, I'm afraid of what the "real" world has for me. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself. I'm very instant gratification centered but that doesn't mean I don't work hard to get what I want and accomplish goals.
I suppose my fear really stems from the simple fact that I was raised to believe anything is possible. You want to travel the world? You can. You dream of being the first female president? Go for it. You love film? Create your own. The world is limitless and I have a limitless imagination. I wasn't created to sit behind a desk for the rest of my life. I crave variety and new experiences.
I'm excited to venture out into life. I've been protecting myself for too long. I came across a post the other day that said:
"The thing that screws us up the most in life is our vision of what it should be."
No one can say what will happen to you. The best thing to do is LIVE. Don't hold back. You've loved someone for years? Tell them. If they don't love you back it's no worse than living without an answer. You want to learn how to play an instrument, study world religion, live on a commune? Do it. Live fully and wholeheartedly with no regrets. Life would be boring there were no mistakes or stumbles along our path, and we got everything right on the first try.
Do I have regrets in my life? Every now and then I think about it. I can honestly say that I don't. Do I wish I had finished college sooner? Of course. But I wouldn't have met some of the amazing people in my life. Have I held love in my heart for someone much longer than I should have? Um...duh! Should I have done anything differently? It's hard to say. Issues like these don't bother me because they have shaped my life. I am thankful for the things I have learned and the things I will learn later into my journey.
I've always told everyone that I would like to be dead by 50. Why? I don't know I've always wanted to dies before my partner, and before I've lost control of my mind and/or body. But now I think about how amazing it will be to become the old woman with the crazy stories about her life who doesn't give a shit about what she says or does.
I'm only 24. I've got time. I'll travel to every country on my wish list, I'll dance in the moonlight with my true love, my children will have a mother who loves them with all of her heart and soul, I'll keep trying new things for the rest of my life, and when it's time for me to leave my mortal shell I'll be truly content to ascend to the heavens.
I'm in no hurry.
XOXO
